Thursday, February 14, 2013

Semoga semuanya baik2 saja

Insyaallah. Someone told me today, maybe i didn't believe in traditional treatment.
I said no, even if i were to 200% believe that traditional treatment work wonders and can heal me, it is only as "wasilah" or "asbab".

Everything is up to Allah SWT.

It's not because i didn't believe in traditional treatment. aku serahkan segala2nya pada Allah.
Aku berusaha dapatkan herba itu, ubat ini, tapi kalau chemotheraphy pun took 6 months, traditional pun sama jugak.
oh well, recent herbal treatment yang aku buat pun (per my previous post : HERE) tak menampakkan apa2 kesan pada mata kasar.

papehal pun, entry neh untuk menceritakan bagaimana journey aku bermula:





mid-2011, i started feeling a lump on my right breast. Even during breastfeeding oya, i know there is a lump. However, a combination of breastfeeding, blocked tube and on/off enlaragement of the breast due to menses, i took it as normal lump.

Early 2012, i went to a well-known lab recently opened in my office's vicinity for ultrasound checking of the breast since mammogram was not advisable.
Diagnosis? Fibroedenoma. Less than 1cm. Normal tissue growth. Nope'it's not cyst. and at this stage, it was not dangerous. I was advised to re-check after 10 months. Fine.

A few months later, i called a society, also well-known, for advise.
I was told that the lab is indeed trustable and good. I had nothing to worry about and i just have to go for checking as suggested.

mid-2012 onwards, my breast started to feel pain before and after my menses and the lump is getting bigger. Some friends practically dragged me to a clinic which wrote a letter to a hospital of my choice for further check-up.

On December 18th 2012, i went to Sunway Medical centre for mammogram, ultrasound and biopsy.
On DEc 20th 2012, i was positively diagnosed with Breast Cancer.

and the journey continues with blood test, CT Scans, Bone scans, etc. I had visits to Sunway, SDMC and i am getting my chemo treatments in PPUM (UH).

Now we know why i may seem "late" to be diagnosed. My advise is go to the hospital. Period.
For anything. If you have the money or insurance coverage, go to private for faster result ( i have very different experience and opinions on private hospitals. maybe i'll share in later post)

So, as of today, Feb 14th 2013, i am a day away from my first chemotheraphy.




It seems like i can;t allow myself to have fever..erk...


I'm taking in FEC for my chemo. If this doesn't work, then i would change the drug combination again.


I have already come to term with it and i am very open to the fact that i have it. The Big C.

Cry? yes. But i am very2 thankful to Allah SWT. Why? this has brought me closer to him. I'd like to believe so. There are so many good things  happening to me and my family after i got the cancer.
So what's the big deal?

I didn't know i have so many wonderful friends who will take and do the extra mile. for me. I wish i could list them here and tell the world what they did but i would prefer to keep with me as the "ganjaran" they will get from Allah will be better. Semoga Allah permudahkan hidup mere, peliharalah hidup dan mati mereka. Amin.

I also know who and who amongst my friends. Those who seem to help you but talk about it behind you. Yes, it hurts but i no longer care since they are no longer important in my life.

I have no problem sharing in FB about it as well as i believe the more i share, the more i may educate others as well as getting tips on treatments.

I hope someone may benefit from my openness. I didn't intend to brag or suruh orang kasihan.
I just need my friends to uknow what i'm going through and may understand why i may not be able to be there when needed. Insyaallah, one fine day, i will.

ps: 4.57pm demm..my breast hurts...

ps: bila nak ber-outdoor neh?

6 comments:

Mrs Tamziz said...

kak..tq for sharing. stay strong n insyaallah Allah swt knows the best for u kak...

mariamjoe said...

Sabar kak. Smoga sentiasa dlm lindungan Allah

Sky Sekai said...

insyaallah. Kita berusaha dan selebihnya kita serahkan pada AllahSWT.Bersyukur diberi peringatan bhw hidup kat dunia bukan untuk berpoya2 semata.
Allah masih sayangkan kita sebab tuh ujian yang diberi setimpal dgn kasih sayangNya untuk penghapus dosa.

Janna Wan Muhammad said...

Beb, i dah lama curious, cuma i didn't have the guts to ask, plus, aku takut mu kecik hati ke ape ke....huhuhu,sedihnya aku....aku doa mu akan terus bersemangat, my late uncle sorang pon ada cancer( prostate cancer) and even my sister sorang penah dpt kanser rahim, tp now she's cancer free....alhamdulillah....my prayers are with u beb, mu stage berapa skang ni?

hasidah ratna hashim said...

Be strong, may Allah grant u all the ease to go through this. Ameen :-)

Sky Sekai said...

janna - stage 3. oloh..tuh pun malu nak tanya..hehehe
shidah - tq babe

insyaallah. have faith.

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