Please , Let It Be

The decision i made last night may stir quite a discussion especially among my loved and close people in my life.
But all i ask is another week.

This is a hard decision for me to make but i believe i ought to give myself a try at this. Myself deserves this.
Especially when a friend specifically arranged for last night meeting with a healer.
All they ask is another week.

I am also stopping all the supplements i am taking now. For about a week.

Don't judge me. I don't bother. Insyaallah, everything's gonna be just fine.

Of course i am scared. ask yourself, would you not be scared of chemotherapy?
Would you not find other alternatives first?

would you, go for chemotherapy, by the way?

The day before the departure

Letter A in this keyboard is missing. typo error memang manyak..heheh

A friend's advise made me proud "setiap ujian/kesakitan bermakna kita disayngiNya, jika kita mampu mentfsir apa hikmahnya, itu adalah hadiah".

Ya Allah. kini aku mampu tersenyum :-) Allah SWT masih sayangkan aku. masih memberi ruang untuk aku bertaubat, menambh amal ibadh yang mampu membuat aku malu untuk mengadapNya.

Haiyaaaaa

Orang balik kampung relax2...memang aku relax2 sambil urus Oya Dan buat keje umah sikit2 like cooking and all..
Tapi bosan pun Ada..tapi I will not check my work email though..
And I am simply too Malas mo jalan2
So macam takde ubat..duk rumah relax je thinking what to cook next..

Hati..kenapakah?

January 9th 2013. Wednesday. Day 1.

The feeling is always different.

Between going back to the other "kampung" and my own where i grew up.

I love both. Who doesn't anyway as it means cuti,holiday,some time away from daily routine.

the journey to both destination tells a different story each and everytime.

this time, my destination is Keningau, Sabah.

Kedah Series : Beris Vineyard

Nov 12th 2012.

We continued our so-called journey ronda2 Aloq Staq. But not before we visited Beris Vineyard or Ladang Anggur Beris.

It's located very near to Sik Town but about 75km from Alor Setar.

Kami ada gak singgah Tasik Beris tp only the R&R yg open since the rest of the attractions were still under construction.

Very hot you know!

MYOB? almost..

Some people need help but they won't speak up.
Some, will say it out loud.
Some, will use gestures or body language.

Gladly!

Assalamualaikum

Orang Melayu kata "berpantang maut sebelum ajal".
Orang putih kata "bring it on"
Ajaran Islam kata "usaha & tawakkal kepada Allah SWT"

Yes. itulah yang tengah dilakukan.

Rezeki. A call to a close relative of hubby in Kg Melayu Subang proved fruitful. Alhamdulillah.
Pak Anjang has grown his own Soursop tree. Well, no fruits yet but i am looking for the leaves to be exact.

So today, we visited them both for social visit (hehe) and the above objective.
My breast hurts. But i take it i am 2 weeks away from my menses and it always happen.

But i can't help but think. maybe the biopsy wound is hurting..