Coretan petang Khamis

salam
ada beberapa orang kawan yang saya sudah kongsi pengalaman diri sendiri.
pengalaman saya tidaklah sehebat mana, tapi saya suka untuk berkongsi.
sapa yang kenal saya, well, u ols mesti tau yang i ols memang suka bercerita kan

saya tak payahlah bercerita siapa saya sebelum kanser. membuka pekung didada kot..haha..

saya start pakai tudung 2 bulan sebelum saya diagnosed with breast cancer.
alhamdulillah. saya mulai sedar banyak perkara.
20 Dec 2012, saya diagnosed with BC, followed with chemo and mastectomy.

well, semua itu saya harungi dengan tabah dan redha berkat doa keluarga, kawan2 dan ihsan Allah SWT.
lama-kelamaan, saya mula berubah sikap. A friend of mine testified to this during our recent teambuilding trip. How and what?

well, berserah segalanya kepada Allah SWT.
Jika sempat, buatlah yang sunat lagi2 yang muakkad. Solat sunat dhuha, Tahajjud, etc.
berdoalah banyak2. serius.

Don't sweat the small things and yet don't ignore them all-together.

Prioritise yang perlu seperti family, time for yourself, time with friends.
Take some time off. Leave at 5.30 from the office and go have coffee.i do this now.
I bought things that i like now, like Tupperware which i thought were outrageous before.
but hey, i no longer feel anything even if i walked into MNG or Zara with full-wallet.
Even when someone actually willing to pay for it. so nak jaga hati punya pasal, i grab a selendang which cost about rm20.

moralnya, material possession is simply very worldly and distracts us what really important.
balance it out and your life will be balanced.
i thought i'm gonna go crazy if i don't do shopping every month.
it turned out, i am a window shopper now except for occasional socks, etc.

apa aku nak cakap sebenarnya, bila sebut rezeki, mata masing2 dah $$$. no my friend.
me myself only noticed this when i slow down a lil.

it's our health. time with family. work. then only the money.
i no longer feel the pressure at work now. in fact, work assignments are completed timely.well, except those that i intended to postpone anyway.

and someone told me i am no longer "fierce" like before.
well, i didn't really notice it but i do know i mellow down a lil bit.
why? avoid unnecessary stress.
if you can't change it, well, why bother stressing over it?

i used to listen to music channels 1st thing in the morning.
now, i will make sure my UNIC CD is played and nyanyilah lagu nasyid ke, Ya Hanana ke, lagu doa harian ke,pastuh baru switch to music channels.itupun kalau aku ingat nak tukar.
why? if we sing along to Penghulu Istighfar every morning, bukan ke lebih baik mulakan hari dengan itu dari menyanyi lagu yang, well, tiada pengisian? and kita sedang berzikir and beristighfar bila ikut CD UNIC? ini contoh tau. suka hati kaulah nak dengar lagu apa pun.

eh banyak dah aku tulis neh.

bottomline, kalau kita nak berubah ke arah lebih baik, buat sikit2 pun takpe.
dan cubalah.
trust in Allah SWT and qada & qadarnya. insyaallah, everything will place into places.mungkin tanpa kita sedari.relax, jangan nak kelam kabut sangat tapi plan ahead.

insyaallah, hati akan tenang. macam saya. hehehe..